Complexity and Knowledge Management Navigators…
I’m deviating slightly from my usual business-led Sunday blog to share a little of my story from the past 4-5 years – it will tell you a lot about me, but, more than that, you’ll find that the story is a little mad and that the real heroine is my wife.
Five years ago I found myself with a wealth of experience, but little to show for it in terms of qualifications. I also wanted to go into independent consulting/training, but I felt I lacked credibility. Sure, I had over 20 years of real world experience, but at 38 I didn’t believe that experience was enough, not for me anyway. What came next was my version of punctuated equilibrium, I essentially threw away my career, moved to Edinburgh and enrolled on an MSc (Management of Training and Development) at the University of Edinburgh. Within six months I had written a proposal for a PhD in Knowledge Management and signed up for a minimum of four years (I wanted to do it in three..everyone told me it would take four and they were right) of being a full time student (or so they thought). In October 2008, my PhD journey began.
Every PhD student has a strategy. For some it is about the title, others the journey (enlightenment), and for some a requirement (e.g. Higher Education lecturing) – one middle-aged female colleague declared over lunch one day that her motivation was to avoid being called, ‘Miss’. For me, it was about the journey and the ability to develop hyper-specialisation in a field that I was genuinely passionate about. At this point my story departs from pretty much any other PhD story I have heard. First, hyper-specialisation has its pitfalls and I wanted to enjoy a more holistic view of soft systems, complexity and Knowledge Management. Second, I had no intention of being a full-time student, but I also didn’t want to take eight years to complete the process (the part-time route) – I had a colleague at the University that has being doing an Ed.D for ten years, and is still going, can you imagine! Third, I wanted to get back to work; I couldn’t afford to have my experience decay in academia and I wanted to be constantly challenging my view of the world, which meant getting back to practice.
I was lucky. My performance on the MSc brought me an invite to become an adjunct lecturer in my first year of the PhD, which quickly moved to a full time position from year 2 onward. I threw myself into research, focusing on practice and devouring literature as if my life depended on it. I was mentored by an incredible supervisor who saw potential in me to achieve something unique and found funding in my first year for me to travel to conferences as far afield as Hong Kong, in order for me to test my ideas.
Then organisations started to take an interest in what I was doing, journal articles came next and then speaking engagements (apparently people loved my passion for the field as much as my new methods and toolkits for understanding KM). As a result of my work, two years in to the PhD (October 2010), the University, via Edinburgh Research and Innovation, provided seed capital to start up K3-Cubed – some were starting to talk ‘burnout’ at this point, they didn’t realise that this is how I work best. Oh yes, almost forgot, I also took a six-month part time Research Fellowship with another University in early 2010. The company came on the back of advisory work I had been conducting in the Middle East and I suddenly found myself as a Director of my own consulting company, full time lecturer and PhD student – it’s not until I write things like this down that I understand how nuts this time really was (people kept telling me this, I just saw it as normal)!
To add a little more insight to this story, I got married in December 2009 and in March 2011 our daughter was born. My wife, fiance at the time, who suffered through my obsessive approach to my MSc almost cried when I told her that I was going to apply for the PhD, but she has stuck with me through thick and thin – late nights/early mornings working (dinner served at 7, eaten at 10), weekends lost to research and/or the business, me spending more time on planes in any given month than I was spending with her and hundreds of cups of tea/coffee that were lovingly made, only to be left to turn cold. I know I could not have done this alone. Zoe, my wife, has seen me at my lowest during these last four years – a major project rocked by politics in the Middle East (our daughter was 9 months old and Zoe had just left her job, thinking that we had a secure 3-year contract with a Middle East government only to find that some contracts are not worth the paper they are written upon) – but she has been there to pick me up and remind me why I was doing this in the first place.
Back to my PhD story… I hit a bump in 2011, I had finished my research, published articles, was working, both at the University and with my business, and I had to start writing up the PhD – I found myself questioning whether the whole process was worth it; I had my enlightenment, I had achieved hyper-specialisation, what did I need those three letters for?
At the same time I launched a new industry engagement project with the University, K-Net, and developed the three-stage University of Edinburgh KM Professional Development Certificates (delivering one five-day course during the week of my viva – I did say it sounds nuts). I have to thank all the people who reminded me how stupid it was to get so close and not finish, regardless of purpose (also, have to be honest, there was an element of feeling jaded towards academic life – there is more politic in your typical UK University than there is in Westminster). So, I went through my Viva in April 2012, I passed (amendments needed), but it was brutal and I do not use the word lightly. Three days later, feeling psychologically battered, I received an email, notifying me that my K-Core research had received an Emerald Literati Network Award – bruised, but not battered – feeling down, but not out.
This brings me to my 10 seconds and 8 steps…
This long four year journey ended this week with 8 steps as I walked to be tapped by a giant hat, purportedly formed from the breaches of John Knox, four years recognised in 10 seconds. Oh yes, and I have the degree, an innocuous looking piece of paper (seriously, A4 size and plain as you can imagine).
So, this was my PhD journey. Thank you for indulging me and I hope it gives you a little insight into the last four years of my life. I’ll never change. I’m driven and I’m a grump if I am not working at high pace and under high pressure. My wife, well she is a Saint (Rome will receive a petition in the near future). My daughter, what can I say about my daughter… I realised a couple of months ago that I was in danger of missing something very special and so now I work to have my time with her. The moment I will cherish for the rest of my life was the sound her voice shattering the silence of graduation as she shouted, “My daddy” during the Vice-Chancellor’s opening remarks.
I have now left the University of Edinburgh and I am focused on the K3-Cubed and our own spin-out, www.kmeducation.com
Looking back, was it all worth it… My wife says this story makes me sound a bit crazy, but Yes.
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